At work again....

Alright, so it is finals week and I am working extra hours. Woot...ish. I have two more finals to do and then I am done for this term. I already know what my grades are for my classes though. Hopefully next term flies by and then it's onto summer and conventions--plus other things as well. Maybe another job. My life right now hasn't been to thrilling. I got sick last week when I had to take my practical finals and now all I have is a cough. I haven't really been socializing to much. Pretty much being lazy right now because I can. Way to be I know.
Leah has been in Kansas for almost 3 weeks now--though it seems like a lot longer. I think that she likes it over there, so that is good. She got a hold of the workers and I think she is going to try to go to meeting over there. Mom is thrilled. She also got a job (which she really needs!) and yeah.
Ok, sadly I don't have to much to say, so I think I will get back to everyone later...
~Some things never change.."

Bored at work!!

ABCs
A - Age: 20
B - Bed size: double
C - Chore you hate: vacuuming (spl?)
D - Dog’s name: No dogs, just three cats--Tulio, Bridget, Tristan
E - Essential start your day item: Shower
F - Favorite colors: Yellow, red, and orange
G - Gold or Silver: Silver
H - Height: 5'3
I - Instruments you play: Viola and lil bit of piano
J - Job title: Student Librarian
K – Kids: Zero
L - Living Arrangements: Still at my parents house, woot!
M - Mother’s name: Linda
N - Nicknames: Dan, Rottins, Curly, my love, Snarky....there are more
O - Overnight hospital stay other than birth: Colon removed
P - Pet Peeve: People not paying attention when I am talking to them/trying to have a conversation. When things are just assumed....
Q - Quote from a movie: For some time passes slowly, an hour can seem an eternity..."
R - Right or left handed: Lefty
S - Siblings: twin sister
T - Time you wake up: 5:45am
U - Ummm moment: more like a crying moment...my kinesiology quiz
V - Vegetable you dislike: Lima beans
W - Workout style: Weightlifting, jogging, and walking--sometimes swimming
X - X-rays you’ve had: Abdominal and foot x-ray
Y - Yesterday’s best moment: gym, going to meeting and taking a bath
Z - Zoo favorite: The big cats

Hey hey!

Ok, so it has been quite a while since I last posted. I probably should have looked to see what was going on at the time. Oh well, I will recount what has been going on to the best of my ability. So, I went through my first term at COCC in the massage program. It was fun, but the massage that we were learning was somewhat dull. I got to meet a lot of people and will be continuing the program with whoever does not drop out (there has been a few so far). The classes are great this term and I get a massage every other day because we have to practice on eachother. Though it was somewhat interesting in the beginning when half the class had to be nude on the tables (course we have sheets, but still). Some people have already been exposed in class--thankfully that has not happened to me. This next week we are doing blind folded massages, lol that in and of itself brings embarassing images of the poor people on the table being groped or exposed as the practicing therapist tries to find their way around. I am excited that this term is almost over! I can't wait for summer to come around, so many things to look forward to! I do need another job though because at the rate I'm going once I buy a car I will be broke. I'm still working at the college library and that is fairly slow. Ummm...I'm all healed up from surgery with no issues except my lovely scars. Leah may be moving to Kansas--I say MAY because I don't know if she will stay there. I've met a lot of great/interesting/weird people in the months from the last time I wrote. Dang, I had more to say but nothing is coming to mind. Oh well, long enough for now, catch ya'll later!
~Sunshine on the window makes me happy like I should be...." retarded song, but that is what came to mind

Sunday.....

I'm going to update! Not that anyone cares, just keeping up with things. So, I started school in September--massage therapy which takes two years. The work load is keeping me busy, but I'm getting more comfortable with the schedule as I continue. Other then that, there really is nothing new. If I wrote for every day on every detail then this thing would be a whole lot longer, but seeing as there really is no point in this thing anymore--I keep it short. The one thing I dislike about this month is the cold weather is setting in and it's just going to get worse :-(. Oh well, gives me an excuse to buy more coats :-P. Well, we have company over, so I should get going.......
~What must I do?"

Ah man!.......

Well, for the sake of nothing else to do and trying to avoid people at the moment I am in my room doing this. I picked Leah up yesterday from the airport, went on a bike ride, had friends come over, and watched the rest of a movie. Not in that order. It's nice to have Leah back home--though her time so far is spent sleeping and talking to a guy from the south. Ha, and just to think, she used to get on my case all the time for talking to a guy and not her. I leave well enough alone--as long as she doesn't take up space in my room. Dad is once again gone for the week, but this time in Klamath Falls. Mom had a brilliant idea and decided to invite the Tocis' and Rich over to make salsa. I think I'll go ride my bike again and find a good book. Need I say, not to social today? I guess the big thing that has been on my mind is be careful what you say--never know when it might have a negative effect on someone else. Or how you act. Yes, I've had both happen recently and I was the recipient. I hate that when all is said and done-the other person who has done whatever or said, has completely forgotten about it and I'm still sitting here with a bad taste in my mouth (so to speak). Yeah I know, move on and forget about it, but some things run deeper then the often petty insults. Ah, oh well--guess I should just talk to the person. So, anyway, I should probably read or something--clear my head. I'll get back to ya'll later....
~You tred on dangerous ground...."

Oh right.......

OKAY, for all of you who don't read this, great! Lol, so we went to convention and man did it go fast! Kind of starting to like Saginaw actually. Can't believe it's over though and we have another year to wait for it to come around again. I'll be 20 years old by then, yikes! Well let's see, I'm looking forward to school and work (if I don't get into one class though I have to wait till winter term, hopefully not the case), get togethers that are coming up, and Hawaii (hopefully) in January for 2 weeks!!!!! Can you say "to much time"? Ha, way to pass the days. So, Leah is in Alaska till next Monday and dad is going to be in Lakeview till Friday, so it's just me and mom holding down the fort. Oh joy, heh. Other then all that....I did have a lot to say earlier this morning, but now I got nothin. Reading another good book, not inspiring, but a good read and another fairytale love. Haha, don't you just hate those? Mom was trying to set me up at convention, lol way to be. Staying in the tent with Heidi, Jerry, and Tom was fun though. Late night chats, group dates to the bathroom--all part of the convention experience. Ummmm...........right. So, I have nothing else that is coming to mind at the moment so I shall catch ya'll later.
~When you find you, come back to me..."

Yup...

I don't see the point in actually writing on this thing anymore, but for those of you that keep up with it, I shall try to make it :-P. Anyway, things haven't really changed all that much. I'm all healed up on the outside, now the inside has to catch up, but I am doing good. Only got to work four days and then it's the end of the summer term, so I wont have work till the fall term :-(. I'm looking forward to school and being somewhat busy. Conventions are coming up fast and I am super excited about that! This next weekend we (me, mom, and Leah) are going to Portland for my grandpa's birthday, so we'll get to see a lot of family!! Leah is going to Alaska to visit our grandparents from the 4th of September to the 14th (lucky!) and yeah. Other then that, I can't think of much at the moment. Had a lot of fun last night going to the volleyball gtg. Didn't play of course, but I got to talk to friends. Out of all the sports known to man, I hate volleyball the most, though I suppose that since that is the only game that the friends like to get together and play--I maybe should suck it up and really learn how to play and be somewhat decent at it. Reading a good book which is somewhat inspiring in its own way, but I guess it would depend on who you are. It's kind of nice to be getting some enthusiasm back for life and the things in it. Anyway, I've run out of things to say, so be seeing you :D
~The solitude experienced while running helps me enjoy people more when I am around them..."

Another day in paradise

Ok, soooo......today I started working again in the library. Thankgoodness I can sit for some of the time. Couldn't find anything good to eat at home so by the time I'm done here my stomach will be a shriveled grape, wonderful. Well, let's see--the Kings came to visit and I exhausted myself trying to keep up, but it was nice to see them again. The weather is seriously hot! Though for the last two nights there have been thunder and lightning storms, which are great! We went to the fair this last weekend and got there when it started pouring down rain. So we met up with the Maricles and hung out in the sheep barn after making a mad dash to get there. Lights went out and we were watching the rain. "This must be what it felt like to be on the ark." I was looking around at the stalls and such with the animals, but Frank took it another way, lol--"Yeah, it sucks!" haha, guess it would....But anyway, the rain finally stopped and we walked around and sat down to talk and scope out potential, lol, joking. The rodeo was canceled, but we went the next day when it was seriously to hot to really sit outside and socialize. I don't know how people in places with 120 degree weather can stand it! Then the other night we had another thunder and lightning storm. So I sat in my room on my bed with the laptop to keep me occupied, while mom, dad, and Rich stood/sat on the porch watching it all. At one point all three of them were standing outside my window looking in. I was eating at the time--"Ooo, she's hungry." "Ain't she perdy?" "Wow, look at the storm". Lol, weird to be the object of interest. But anyway, just been keeping busy with cleaning the house, reading, writing, trying to hang out with friends, and talking on the phone. Now it's back to work and bringing in a little money. Much needed! Conventions are in about 3 weeks I think, so I am looking forward to that. And then going to Portland to see relatives--not sure when exactly in the next couple weeks...THEN back to school and a crazy work load. Oh boy, other then that--yeah.
~I don't know if we all have a destiny....or we're just floating along accidental like on a breeze..."

Another day

Alright well, I should be doing something other then this, but that is the way it goes. I don't feel like getting up right now. Apparently everyone has umm....disappeared on this thing. Ah well, my phone is dying. SO--dang, I should have checked to see what was going on in the last post I wrote, but I guess things are basically the same. I've been getting better and walking around more. Mom is thrilled to have more help--when I do help that is. Feeling more like myself which is a good thing, have my ups and downs, but nothing to big. Lets see, this weekend our friends from Alaska are coming down to visit, like they do most every summer (we'll see what the heck we're doing this time around). Larea moved in for about a week and a half before she decided that she was going to spend another year in Bend and got an appartment. Lol, probably couldn't stand us is all :-P. Hmm.....what else is there? Oh, some of our cousins from Texas--that we have never met--are wanting to get together. We haven't seen my dad's brother and his wife and kids for about 11 or so years, maybe more. We never did see the kids, so that will be something. Let's see--mentally, doing good, physically getting better, spiritually--standing still. It's amazing how things and perspectives can change after you go through tough experiences. After having everything from last month happen, it's taken a bit to actually start caring about certain things again. But anyway, better do something productive
~Some things are taken out of our lives for a reason"

My life continued...

If you want to know specific details ask. But anyway, lets see.....at the beginning of the month I had two surgeries and am doing better now. I can get around easier, just don't ask me to hike or walk much. Get tired easily, but anyway. This summer is going to be pretty chill. Gonna start working again at the library part time in July sometime--sweet savings, ha. Other then that, helping out around the house, getting back into driving! and who knows what else. Try to get a tan on this seriously pasty skin. Can't wait to go to conventions!!! But the next one is Saginaw, so I got a ways to go. One of my uncles is planning a family thing in July and there's a great movie coming out then. I know I shouldn't like 'em, but it's a great source of entertainment right now. Kind of getting old, but what can you do? Hmmm....other then that, going back to school hopefully in the fall. Just have to get into one class and then I can take the rest of them. Just hope the waiting list isn't to long. If that doesn't work out maybe I'll get another job and who knows. Saving up to get a car, I know--finally. Don't start breathing down my neck just yet! Umm.....can't wait till I really heal up and can do stuff again without being limited. Yep, that's about all I can think of really. So, there is the monthly update--I know, fascinating. :-P
~Where have you been, my long lost friend?

Morning :-P

Ok, so--writing, not so much my thing these days. I am beginning to keep to myself more, it works out. Anyway, I didn't get the job at the Old Mill, but that is alright (they didn't want to hire someone that was going to be gone for a month or more). Though I still have the job at the college and plenty of house and yard work to keep me busy--not to mention other people's yards. Well, hmmm, what could I go off about? Leah has been having an interesting time lately, but if you want to know her life ask her. I don't think she would want me broadcasting her life. So for those of you who haven't seen her lately or heard from her she is doing ok for the most part. She's also looking at different job options and since she got her surgery they say that she can't go into the army, but she says she is going to march back there and demand.....well something. Other then that, well, ask her. Anyway! Life has it's ups and downs, it's interesting from time to time, I am just rambling trying to find something to say. Well, I could go off on some things, but I think I am going to get to bed, so I'll catch all ya later

HELLO!!

Yeah, been a while, look at me go! So, why on earth am on inside on a day like today? One, I'm going out in a minute, two--had the itch to write, and three--there is no three. Quite a bit has changed since the last time I wrote. Been keeping up in my journal only. Well, about the whole job thing, I now have my job at the college back and I may be getting a job at the Old Mill theater downtown--depending on a few things. Mom had to kick my butt out the door to get more applications, but it actually worked out well this time. Yeah yeah, I know what you all hear--I hear it to much too. If you try hard enough then things will turn out. Yada yada, same old crum all the time. It's kind of two sided isn't it?? So, there is the whole work thing. Other then that I have been home trying to be motivated about house work and it's kind of difficult. You know how that goes right? Been reading books a lot more and driving, walking the butte at night, etc. There's one thing I'm bankin on, but I haven't told anyone about it--but we'll see what happens. Hmmm.....all the other interesting stuff is probably unmentionable :-P, life as of now is just peachy, still planning a lot of things and just waiting till I can actually act on them. As is usual for my posts these days, this is going to be another short one. Stay cool all, catch ya later
~Coming to a cross roads huh?

Update.....

Alright, so it has been a while since I even thought of trying to write on here. Nothing really new has been going on (though yeah, I give my closer friends more details). Still looking for a job, not going to school till fall term or in the summer--depends, leaving town today to go to the cabin trip thing--should be fun, and yeah. As I said not a whole lot. If you are lucky enough you don't hear the details and me rambling on and on. Gotta love it. I've learned how to drive a 5 speed better and I have been writing mostly in my journal. That is why there is absolutely nothing on here. Plus nothing is really coming to mind right now, so I think I will head out anyway. Toodles!
~It's a small world after all....."

Here's a paper I wrote, check it out and by all means give me feed back.....

Unspoken Rules of the Girls Public Bathrooms

The public bathroom, like all places, can be a very social place as well as a place to be avoided. Between the long lines that seem to wind down the hall to your talkative neighbor constantly complaining about some tirade that is clouding her life, what could be more frustrating—and amusing? Not to mention the frantic girl close to the back of the line doing a small jig trying to wait her turn and hopefully make it to a stall in time. Reminding you all the while of the small children that have stood in line doing what they call a potty dance as they desperately clutch onto the hand of their parents (as well as their crotch) waiting patiently with a slight look of fear that they might not be able to hold it after all. Hoping beyond hope that those darn potty training skills come in handy. All these are cause for much interest as well as a huge amount of annoyance as you wait your turn.

By all means, who wouldn’t want to stand in a huge line? Chatting to strangers and friends while your bladder feels as if it might burst if the idiots before you don’t hurry up. I mean, how long should it take. Get in, get out, and please wash your hands before you exit. But of course there’s the casually slow walk toward the stall, all the while talking to one of your friends, laughing hysterically like there’s no one else in the room. Annoyance flares as girls slowly take their time, feet tapping, aimlessly trying to draw attention away from that soda that is threatening to…well you get the picture. The point is it is far to long of a wait.

Finally one of the toilets will flush as well as the rest, seemingly synchronized, as if they had planned the whole thing in advance. Girls crowd out of the stalls, so that more can take their place, only to stand crowded in front of the mirror.

In a fraction of a second the make-up is flipped out of purses, hair is being fixed, and teeth are being checked. If all else fails the girls turn back to their friends to talk more about their boyfriends or whatever else pops into their minds. All the while those who had planned the simple get in, get out, and exit plan I mentioned before are stuck waiting behind all these talkative chits. One of the girls shriek as she pokes herself in the eye with her mascara stick, while another shoves through the crowd finally being able to wash her hands and silently wondering if she was the one that accidentally bumped the girl with the mascara. Who at the moment is frantically rubbing her eye, as it turns red from irritation.

Now as you stand in line for the girls around the sink to disperse you become vaguely aware of how fast the bathroom is filling up with more occupants. People push and shove to get past you, trying as before to either get to a stall or vacate the premises. And on the rare occasion, you get smacked in the back of the head with a door you realize shouldn’t be able to swing that way.

Finally emerging from that horrid fiasco of pushing and shoving and the sudden attack of the door, you come to the hall that is not so over crowded (though sometimes not much better).

Overall don’t be one of these people. Please stand in line and wait your turn, talk as much as you like, dance for all I care, but when a stall opens please do not precede at a snails pace to get there. Remember there are others that are more desperate than you and would very much appreciate your place in line. And should I mention, do not, I repeat DO NOT sit down on those porcelain seats--unless of course you don’t mind the appearance of some mysterious rash some weeks later. But hey, why listen to me right? It’s a risk you can take.

As before please make haste. Wash your hands and please get out. Your make-up looks fine, your hair hasn’t changed in the last class, and unless you’ve eaten something in the last five or so minutes I doubt there will be anything in your teeth. So unless there is a dire emergency that involves many tears and running mascara, I suggest that you leave before you get hit with the door that may be swinging your way.

Wednesday........

So, another week is going by, well what to say? I wrote on Saturday, not to exciting. I did accidentally get my hair in the paint on Saturday so I had some nice new highlights :-P. Other then that, Sunday, went to both meetings and mom had friends over. After gospel meeting Heidi and I went out for tea and caught up with each other a bit. Sorry Frank, weren't included in our social uh...outing :D. Anyway, I've been getting back to jogging and by the afternoon I'm always zonked, but it feels good anyway. Not the temperature outside though. Also been practicing driving the manual and finally got the hang of it, woot! So, now mom has me driving to quite a few places. Well, since I don't hear from many people in the day--my life has hit a lull. Sure I've been looking for a job, running mom around, doing house chores, and whatever else I can find to do, but still. The thought crossed my mind that I am so glad we have something to look forward to and to build towards other then this world. It would certainly be a bleak prospect if we only had this world to live for. But anyway, I will continue when I have something to say, tootles!
~What's this life for?"

To paint or not to paint.....

Alright well I finally got my room painted--well mom helped out a lot too. Now I am ready to be FAR away from all people for the rest of the day. Unfortunately mom got on a cleaning kick. That is basically all my day consisted of: waking up, painting, sitting, painting some more, getting my room put back together, playing the piano, and now this. Sweet I know. I so badly want a JOB! Other then that, life is getting a little less complicated.
~Some where out there...."

Come one come all........

Right so, I haven't written in a while, but I'm pretty sure you all wouldn't not want to dive into my chaotic thoughts right now. Yeah, I'm gonna say, life is a bit interesting at the moment. I have been looking for a job, buying a bunch of stuff, trying to keep busy, talking on my phone a lot, trying to get my room ready to paint (might as well just get the job done), getting used to being around mom and her ever changing moods, and trying to get the hang of driving again. Not that I did much of that before anyway. Anyway, on the whole job thing--I turned in quite a few applications and still have yet to hear back from any of them. I turned in an app. at the public library and found out that they got 189 applications besides mine. So, my chances are slim to none. Craigslist is where I am trying to keep up to speed. But there are definitely jobs out there that aren't mentioned. I will keep you all posted all for the sake of keeping posted, just so then I don't have to answer that all the time ;-). Buying stuff is pretty self explanatory. Trying to keep busy isn't to hard, the guys seem to do that. Talking on my phone a bunch--well I could be totally honest, but who knows who would look at this. Let me tell ya, one guy shows up and then the rest follow. If you have anything to ask, shoot away or give me a good talking to, lol. And then I am painting my room cause mom wants me too. Though once again things are changing for me.....oh boy
Hey Frank, if you want to get together I will give you CD's to rip :-P there insentive. Then you can say you wanted the CD's not getting together ;-) hahaha
~Do you know...."

That is how it goes.....

I have been home for almost a week, for those of you who don't know. I decided that Montana was not the place I wanted to live. Yes, I did meet some great people, but that was not what I was looking for at the moment--moving I mean. So, I am back at home looking for a job and signing up for college classes, though only a few because I want to get a full time job in order to get a car. My life isn't to exciting right now, but that is ok. I really don't have much to say right now, so ciao...
~what is it you cherish?"

Lack of internet.....

Alright well, I am at the Jacobsen's because we have no internet at our place. Let's see....what happened this last weekend. Well, Valentines weekend.....Shawna and her sister went on a double date with their boyfriends and we just pretty much hung out for the rest of the time. Things have gotten better, but I have decided on what I want to do. I've been cleaning a lot, trying to keep things in order, learned how to pump gas, and so on. Talking to alot of people, meeting some really nice ones here and there. I guess I don't really have much to report on, but just thought I would check in. So, I will talk with everybody later....
~Somethings in life never change and some things do..."

Back to reality......

Ok, don't know when the last time I blogged was, but here is this one. Still same old same old, though I've been talking to a lot of people back home. Leah is out of the hospital and doing better, we now can actually have intelligent conversations, ha. Dad found out that he is going to get laid off sooner rather then later, so everyone is holding their breath till March 1st to see what the verdict is. Hope it doesn't go to bad. Went to meeting last night and met a lot more people--they had drinks and cupcakes afterward. I don't think they have many get togethers around here, so they try to fit it in whenever possible. Mom is doing fine as always, though she is sleeping better because she is pretty much exhausted by days end; taking care of Leah and working and doing house work--still feel bad about that. Around here there aren't many kids surprisingly--one of them actually went boarding on Monday and broke his collar bone. Ouch! I really don't have much to report, I have a job interview on Saturday, so we'll see how that goes. I might just stay out all day then, just so I can get there on time and because the "couples" are going out to dinner and a show type thing. So being out and about would be better. Anyway, nothing much else to bring up, if I think of anything I'll let you know.
~Cause nobody wants to be the last one left, cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares...."
P.S. thankyou to those who have kept in touch :-)