Let's see if this works.....

Alright, we will see if this works. Goodness knows it took longer than I thought it would, but anyway. All I can think of right now is 'what a day'. Really nothing to exciting happened--though I did stay home. Got to sleep in (which was nice), got up, looked up jobs on craigslist (not only for here). Talked to Leah, which is always a good thing to do. Went outside to clean up the yard and that took about 2 hours, took a shower, did more chores, slept, went shopping with Cindy for about 2 more hours and then came back home. So there is the outline, but let me back up to the beginning. Ah! I don't know. Earlier I talked to Leah, she gets fed up with me a lot these days. Well, first there was the patience issue--I don't have much for her lately and then there is the attitude she thinks I have of being better than her. I'll admit that I don't have much patience for her anymore because (as I told her) I don't like to see someone I was so close to say that she is unable to do certain things, give up, and not help herself. Though I guess I wont go into to much detail on that whole thing--just in case someone wants to read this. As for the second thing she acused me of, that is absolutely not true. I don't know, I could recount the whole thing, but I think I wont. The day from there went fine--we got things straightened out and were on good terms again after talking for a while. Did our chores, hung out together, went shopping. Haha, shopping with Cindy is like shopping with our mom (and you wonder why I like to sit in the car, sometimes). It was nice getting out of the house anyway. I guess what kind of got me down tonight was that we came home and went from being around someone that was happy, to two parents that were down in the dumps. Don't get me wrong, I know life can't always be great, but I was hoping the end of the day would have been happier. Mom and dad are worried about money, taxes, credit cards, etc. That's mostly why I want to go to school and get a good job; so I don't have to worry about money as much as they do. So, Leah went to bed early and I decided to look into getting a second journal, though it's not private--I don't think many people will read it anyway. It's nights like these where I feel trapped sometimes, not just because of these little things, but things just add up. It's the atmosphere or the feeling of the house. Usually I am a happy joy joy, spunky, hyper person, but not always. Wow, there is so much I could say, but how much do I really want to releave on this thing? It's not gonna get any better from here--I should actually read and go to bed. Things usually look....better when I've slept.
~Don't let your heart get heavy....."