That is how it goes.....

I have been home for almost a week, for those of you who don't know. I decided that Montana was not the place I wanted to live. Yes, I did meet some great people, but that was not what I was looking for at the moment--moving I mean. So, I am back at home looking for a job and signing up for college classes, though only a few because I want to get a full time job in order to get a car. My life isn't to exciting right now, but that is ok. I really don't have much to say right now, so ciao...
~what is it you cherish?"

Lack of internet.....

Alright well, I am at the Jacobsen's because we have no internet at our place. Let's see....what happened this last weekend. Well, Valentines weekend.....Shawna and her sister went on a double date with their boyfriends and we just pretty much hung out for the rest of the time. Things have gotten better, but I have decided on what I want to do. I've been cleaning a lot, trying to keep things in order, learned how to pump gas, and so on. Talking to alot of people, meeting some really nice ones here and there. I guess I don't really have much to report on, but just thought I would check in. So, I will talk with everybody later....
~Somethings in life never change and some things do..."

Back to reality......

Ok, don't know when the last time I blogged was, but here is this one. Still same old same old, though I've been talking to a lot of people back home. Leah is out of the hospital and doing better, we now can actually have intelligent conversations, ha. Dad found out that he is going to get laid off sooner rather then later, so everyone is holding their breath till March 1st to see what the verdict is. Hope it doesn't go to bad. Went to meeting last night and met a lot more people--they had drinks and cupcakes afterward. I don't think they have many get togethers around here, so they try to fit it in whenever possible. Mom is doing fine as always, though she is sleeping better because she is pretty much exhausted by days end; taking care of Leah and working and doing house work--still feel bad about that. Around here there aren't many kids surprisingly--one of them actually went boarding on Monday and broke his collar bone. Ouch! I really don't have much to report, I have a job interview on Saturday, so we'll see how that goes. I might just stay out all day then, just so I can get there on time and because the "couples" are going out to dinner and a show type thing. So being out and about would be better. Anyway, nothing much else to bring up, if I think of anything I'll let you know.
~Cause nobody wants to be the last one left, cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares...."
P.S. thankyou to those who have kept in touch :-)

Weekend in Shelbey.....

Alright, I hit the enter key again. Make a long story short or shortish, the weekend was loads of fun! There that is all you get...no I'm kidding. I have nothing else to do right now, so I shall continue on. Well, on Thursday we went out and looked at apartments and fell in love with one that we looked at. Yeah, how on earth can you fall in love with one eh? Dont ask me, it's just a figure of speech. Anyway, it would be awesome if we get into that place by the end of this week. Here's hoping! Shawna went to work that night and I went over to the Jacobsen's as arranged. Everyone is asleep by then anyway. In the morning I slept in to late (6:45am) so had to make my bed and rush out the door and walk to Shawna's place where I packed for the weekend and waited for Shawna to get ready. We then proceeded to drive about 4 hours and stopped in to see an aunt in the hospital, then continued on for about an hour or so and went to see one of the many cousins that Shawna has. No joke, I think all Montana is inhabited by Benjamins. Anyway, stayed out at her grandparents house, went out shooting with the guys on Saturday, and out to dinner that night. Was a shaperone on Friday night (not that I was worried) and went on a "triple" date Saturday night, ha ha. Sunday went to meeting and met more of the family, had lunch and then drove home singing and talking. Now it's back to job hunting and looking for apartments or hopefully getting into that one that we looked at. Since this next weekend is valentines day I will most likely be hanging by myself (which isnt to bad, since I wouldn't have a date an' all). I'll think of something to do :D. Other then that, my cell phone had no reception out on the farm, so if you tried to call me that is why I didn't get back to you. Well, hope everyone is doing spiffing, I will catch up later....
~In the jungle, the mighty jungle, the lion sleeps tonight!!!"

Almost a week.....

Well, it has almost been a week that I have spent here. Time really flys--though I do need to fiind something more productive to do with my time. All that my life consists of now is sleep, eat, job applications, apartment hunting, shopping, walking a bit, talking to people here and there, and yeah. Not much, but life is bound to improve. So, Leah's surgery went well and she is still in the hospital. She's had a few visitors, but she gets tired really easily. I've talked to her a couple times, but by the end of about a minute she sounds like she's about ready to pass out on me. Needless to say, we don't talk often. Anyway, Shawna and I are hoping that we can get this apartment we want though that means we'd both have to have minimum wage jobs. So, if she doesn't mind giving up the job she has now, we might be able to swing it. As far as I know, she doesn't like her job much....we'll see. Last night we went to bible study and I was so glad to be there. Met some nice people and well....meeting always seems to be the very thing I need. Things are going better for me, I'm not missing home as much, but there is still that tendency to think about it and wish I was back home with mom and her warmth and spirit, dad with his great conversations and humor, and Leah with her close friendship. These days in the morning I think about mom sitting in her chair with the cats reading her bible....it's been sort of a comfort to me and an encouragment. If I can make it through this, then well--least I've accomplished something right?? But anywho, I guess there is not much else to say. Though I have appreciated the friends that have been keeping in touch as well as family, thank you :-)
~Oh what shall it profit, riches and pleasures to gain, if your own soul be the forfeit, shall it not all be in vain....."

Third day in no mans land......

lol, actually it's not to bad, but I hope Shawna wont get to tired of me. Anyway--the first night here was the worst. Got really homesick and my brain kind of started functioning over time and I was wondering why the heck I didn't stay for Leah's surgery. Needless to say I wore myself out that night and slept like a rock. For the last two days we've been cruising around trying to find jobs for me and a new apartment. The landlords are being a bit difficult, so Shawna figured we might as well get out now. I'm not complaining. I am currently residing on Shawna's floor, which is not bad and yeah. The other day I walked around town and it didn't take very long. Though I did get lost--how the heck can you get lost in a town with less then 1400 people?? Well it is possible. An old man started talking to me--asked where I was from and whatnot. I told him Oregon and he went off on being a liberal. Interesting I must say. Oh and about the phone situation, I may have to switch, but I'm hoping not. If you call and I miss it, I will most likely call you back. Sooo....if there is anything else you want to know, just ask. I really need a camera so I can post pictures!
~Some day, when I'm awefully low, and the world is cold--I will feel a glow just thinking of you...."

Montana......

Alright, so here I am, laying on Shawna's floor with the laptop and no spell check, bummer! About the spell check I mean. Well, I'll update you all on yesterday. I packed with the help of Larae all morning and then took a shower and went to a movie with mom and Leah and then out to dinner with everyone. I was going to go out and see the motley crew before I left, but I don't know why I didn't :-(. Anyway, Leah and mom went to bed early and me and dad got to talking and stayed up till 1:00 in the morning. I made sure I had all my stuff and then said goodnight and slept with mom--since my bed was packed up. Set my alarm for 4:20 in the morning, but mom woke me up sooner. Course Bridget had to join the group....anyway, Leah got the shower and I just put a skirt on and left the clothes on from the night before. We were out of the house by 5. Dad didn't go to the airport, but that was ok. Mom was crying before we even left the house, way to early to be doing that. I got jelly beans, a cd, and a book with two letters for the flights--though I was to nervous to really eat. Got to the airport, checked in, said goodbye to mom who was crying and almost went without giving Leah a hug. Got on the plane after asking which one I was supposed to get on, found my seat and we were off. The lady that sat next to me fell asleep listening to music and the man in front of us started snoring. I read my letters from mom and dad and for the rest of the flight had a turmoil of thoughts.......mostly memorized lines from movies and spiritual thoughts. I know, those go together so well. I guess I like to keep my mind busy with something. Anyway, got to Salt Lake City and thankgoodness the next flight out was easy to find--I was worried. So, I sat for 2 hours waiting to take off and then scrambled to get on the plane. I sat next to a guy from Florida who was taking a business trip. Apparently he's friends with one of the guys from the group Nsync and his daughter went to her friends party and they had the Jonas Brothers over. Well he was an interesting guy anyway. By then I was kind of tired and was looking out the window and ready to pass out. He talked quite a bit and I did my best to keep up. I was glad to get off the plane though--to much sitting. But hey, Shawna didn't forget me! She was there when I got off the plane and we waited for forever to get my bag. We thought it was lost, but it turned up behind the counter. After getting back to a few people, collecting my bags, and going out to a late lunch we headed off to gospel meeting. Which is at 3:30 and lasts for 45minutes. It seemed sooo short! Oh right, there was a guy in SLC that sounded like Forest Gump--back to....yeah. Met a few people and this field has the opposite problem that the Bend one does. There are hardly any girls--so more guys. Apparently a lot of them are pretty wild though. A lot of people marry early here, kind of confusing on who is married and who not. I'm going to miss having younger kids in the field though. Anyway, Manhattan is tiny and I mean TINY! There's only about 1400 and some people here. The mountains are gorgeous though!! Well, anyway, I think I am going to sleep a little bit--so I will catch up with you all later. Excuse my errors in this thing, no spell check an' all....
~what a day....."
P.S. Frank, you almost made me cry when I read the heading on your last blog "goodbye old friend". yeah, I'm gonna miss people all right....